My face is so cold I can’t feel the water as it runs down my cheek.

I know its there.

It’s all slipping through my fingers now.

I can’t find it anymore in the dark.

I’m afraid that this cruel twist has set into motion,

Fate turning too fast to stop and turn it back now.

Can the clock start ticking backwards?

Turn back the hours and days,

Until my voice finds its strength to speak.

This Silence has betrayed me

And I will watch you as you go.

All that remains is the silence.

I guess life is about those quiet moments,

Not the one ten minutes ago when you stormed out slamming the door.

Still not quiet enough when you curled up next to me and laid your head in the curve of my back.

But more as of now, as you read studying at your desk and I see my golden hair hanging from your shirt.

I smile and remember why I love you.

My eyes are still red and heavy. My heart is the same. My mind just plays over and over our midnight game. Just let your arms be around me, let your lips find my face. Let’s just lay our heavy heads to sleep and let all be well in our dreams.

I can smell his scent on my skin,

I feel his arms wrapped around me pulling me tighter,

And although he isn’t with me,

I feel his face pressed against my cheek as his breath trickles down the back of my neck.

Was it one night ago or months since the touch was real,

How long since the bites on my neck were made,

Time didn’t matter when he kissed me so restlessly,

eyes made tired from staring deep into our souls as night drew on,

or when he held me and never let go.

Love isn’t blind.
Love is Omni-present, all knowing, and enveloping.
We choose love, choose only to see love.
Love isn’t blind, we blind ourselves.

Love is an extra lens we use to see.
Although our eyes will always have faults and blind spots,
Do not blame love for things you cannot see,
Because love is what gives you the ability to understand it all.

It’s as they all say, third time is a charm.

But not to me, it’s just another big mistake.

My life is now defined by sequences of threes,

And the third time is the worst.

Does it just take three times to learn a lesson?

Three times before it stays forever imprinted in my mind?

Third time again,

Let it be over before I lose my mind.

The sickness will never leave me.

More entricing dreams that plague me every night while I struggle to stay asleep.

And therein lies your problem,
You’re just looking for an answer, you think you know what you’re solving for.

Sometimes that is the problem, and to solve, you need to go back to the root, the equation to see how she got there.

Then its a matter of following the patterns and rhythms back down the line until you understand,

She is the variable.

When the leaves first begin to fall and shadows cover the moon, I’ll take the dark winding road and feel the cold deep in my soul. The rain will wash the embers and clear past imprints left on my mind. Fate carry me to a new place, one where I feel peace, where the sun never rises.

We could have it all, be almost perfect

I wouldn’t want that, I would throw it all back

I’m content with what we are and what we have

Just you is all I need